February

Base on my counting, this is the 5th months we be together and many things happend in this month. so, lets keep on count

[02/02/18]
God, this is the longest day i've ever life in and the fastest night at the day


[06/02/18]
First fight??
i hope this isn't happen to often


[08/02/16]
Always be jealous about your ex. she had your four years that i haven't. she had that kiss before i did. she had your grip longer than i had. she had every word you've said to me before i heard it. she had your vision longer than me. she had every single things we did, even tho before i could done it with you.

you dont know how much this is, but i do. you don't even know the pain of being losing before the fight, but i do.

why this is so hard? she had you for four years, while i'm having you for four months. thats part killing me the most.

its hurt.


[12/02/18]
If you know the influenfe you gave to me was so damn great.
the way you comfort me, the way you makes me happy and the way you hurt me. works every time.
lets say i'm a little too much but, thats the true.

i dont know about you, but i really am happy to be with you, even the fights are scary but it still. i trully am happy today, because of you.

thank you for being the parts of my life, for be with me even tho its hard.

i love you hubbie 

-i know you might be bored to heard it or read it, but i'll keep saying that to you.



[15/02/18]
I didn't like it, when you told me to take a bath, and after i did you just sleep. just do it like we use to before, we spent our night together till you asleep then i'll take a bath. isn't that simple?


[16/02/18]
Now i feel weird, why do i keep feeling jealous about everything?


[21/02/18]
It's just me or the fight is happening to often??


[24/02/18]
It took me sometimes to realize. how human brain easily forgot, i was forget about why i choosing you to be mine, about why i keep doubting my self. but now i won't.

i remember clearly why its always be you, why my heart beating faster when you arround, how my blood boiled and my body freeze when you look me in the eye. i love you much more than i know, more than you see.

i miss you each time we are apart, i miss the way you smile, the way you act. i miss every single thing of you.
they said love latter just for the one who always be far from you, but i could write you a thousand of it every day you're not arround.

i'm sorry if i couldn't be the girl in your head but i'll try to be the one you always needed. the one who's always there for you neither you like it or not, the one who's never turn her back for you. i love you, sorry for every thing