2022, dumping my shit

 this is 2022

first time i post again after a year or so, dan pastinya untuk mengeluh wkwkwwkk

well, 2020 was something but nothing particular for me, but 2021 is something i really don't wanna talk about. that's not the worst part of my life, not even my rock bottom it just something bad happen and i really don't wanna talk about.

so, lets skip forward to this lovely year of 2s which is my favorite number, 2022. 

i do have plan, no i don't. im not even sure what i able to share anymore. if i being me, so many person would hurt by my word but if i'm not being me, then who else i suppose to be? 

like.. dude, no one ever care about you, if its not you who supporting your self then who else would? the thing is, my life is not that special, im not having a big wave that could destroy my life or my career (which i grateful of) but also not a successful career that could lift my life up. like i don't have the up or down. it just a straight line and im happy for it.

i don't wanna tell the world what is up with me, but i also can't keep it just for myself. the only turbulence on me is my boyfriend of 5 years. i use to talked out everything to him like everything. which lately i couldn't  because some issue he has between his self. like, he has to win his self and that's alright, and i can do nothing about it, it's him dealing with his mind, right?

and here i am, dealing with my own issue, back to the blog, write shit up, release it from the system then forget it even exist.

 

i do really need a person to talk to. but that specific person need his own god damn time.